It's done.

I don't know why I'm so stupid about this.Haven't I had enough? It's already broken once,it doesn't need another blow for another break.I need to hit something.
What the fucking hell did I see in him,I don't even know.
He was never my type and he annoys me to no end.I hated people like him and tried my best to avoid him when he didn't.
But then I got tired,and I let him in.Behind the walls and the locks,I stupidly let him in after all the pain's worth of that first love.And  not to mention,right after I'd worked hard to stand up again.*chuckles* What an imbecile.

It's hard.

It's different yet altogether the very same.
I tried forgetting him once and when I thought I succeeded,he somehow broke through again.It's hard with him,because I learned to love him-bit by bit.
I earned this feeling,little by little,with his stupid efforts of breaching through.That's why it's hard.
When he does something like this-being immature and insensitive and dumb-how can I help feeling so hurted?

So I'm deciding,this's enough.
This is as far as it goes.

I'm not going through with this shitfuck the second time and there's no way in hell that I'm going to let him be the cause of my tears.It's not worth it.
He's not worth it.
No matter how many people in our class tried bringing us together,how many supported us,this will never work.Because they don't understand.They're still kids,what do they know? *shrugs*
Like I said,nobody ever understands one's feelings unless they'd undergo the same experience.And believe me,they don't.

In the end,it all ends the same.The way it's suppose to end from the beginning.And this time,I pray that it's permanent.

True story.