AkImA No NiKkI

I had the best time out with Sis and Bro and (unborn) nephew last 3 days. ^^ They picked me up at college on the afternoon of 7th and we went to Subang to check in to a budget hotel, not unlike the ones Sis and I stayed at when we went to Shah Alam for my degree interview at In-Tech. Sis wanted to check out the new Bookalicious store she followed on IG at the Summit Mall in Subang and naturally, I'd be tagging along because BOOKS! CAN NEVER GET ENOUGH OF BOOKS! Hehe x3 I really had fun during the whole time we were out and together, whether it's the crazy conversations in the car or trying to choose dinner on a weird named food on the menu. I'm starting to like my big brother as well. That's quite a big confession isn't it? Nearly 6 months ago, I've only referred to him as "a stranger" or "the stranger" and then later, after the marriage and after sis and I made up, he was referred to as "her husband" or "bro-in-law...

Happy New Year of 2017, everyone. There. That's the extent of my greetings to summarize the end of an old year to a new one because frankly, I don't feel any difference. It just feels like any other same date like previous new years.  We're in the middle of Finals to end our 2nd term and even after that, there isn't much time for end-of-term breaks because of the 2 weeks observation thing. Granted, I've chosen a school close to home so it might as well feel just like I'm going back to school. Right now, I'm sitting my ass going through notes and slides to prepare for the next paper in 2 days alone in my room because roomie went back to her brother's house in KL. New year started off with me, my feet up on the desk, dirty tupperware from dinner by the side, quarter empty hot chocolate in hand, laptop open with multitude equal of sociology notes and recent anime episodes. Huzzah. (deadpan) 2016 was when I just got into PALAM early Feb and t...

Right. I meant to update soon as I got home but.....yeah. I procrastinated. It's our long-planned holiday together since we got into degree programme and though it felt like it ended before it started, meeting them face to face again was worth it. Worth it. So fucking worth it. Persuading Mom to let me go was a bit of a doozy. Thank God Dad didn't have an issue with it. I kinda don't get it though, because I've been to places on my own before and she didn't have any objections but when I wanted to skip states to see my bestfriends, she suddenly backtracked? If it was a sense of danger, then wouldn't me skipping places on my own be more dangerous than me diddling over to see people who cares about my safety more than myself? Anyhoo, Dad managed to give me the go. The bus in TM is shit. My ticket was at 9 a.m which they tell me the earliest but after waiting from 8.30 to goddamn 11, I was spitting F-bombs like it was free candy. When I asked, they casuall...

This one is a happy one. I know there're more sad, angry, and angst posts in here more than I like to admit, but there are the occasional fun ones, laughing ones, good ones, and overall happy ones. Those of which I normally include or dedicate to a person I love, and we all know how jealously and paranoidly I guard them, don't we? Well, this one has a specific name on the title of the post, so in case you suddenly developed temporary amnesia, this one is dedicated to Irene. It's purely coincidental that I feel the need to write this soon after a post to Amelia, FYI. Okay? Okay. So, Irene.  It's no secret that she and I first met in second term during Foundation, via Mya. They live close together, enough that should they decide to meet up, they can. Unlike me who lives a couple of states away. It's funny to think that both of my bestfriends are Kedahan though, considering I have a really bad image of Kedahan people ever since one broke my sis's heart...

Ayyy waddup it's someone's 20th birthday today and lemme tell you who. ............ Nah bruh I ain't tellin you shit! Lololol you gotta guess 'cause we all run on intelligence and dope 'round here xDD   Imma give you clues tho, so you don't cry if you suck ass. ;P She goes by female pronouns. She slay like a mothafuckin queen, you won't dare breathe towards her. She got a fuckin black hole of a stomach tho but you know what, who tf in this world don't love food 'cause imma tell you right now she loves food more than life and we all fuckin love her for it. OOOHHH and everything is out to get her to bleed like a free blood donation from everything  and I MEAN  EVERY-FUCKING-THING  for instance, papers? yup, cut her like a sword. leaves? sure, open that skin layers bruh. Oxygen? at this point, why the hell not. Irene started carrying boxes of patch-me-ups for this, I ain't kidding, man. She got a brain so sexy Sherlock and Moriarty be due...

Olas. We're up to 9 days in Ramadhan now. 3 more weeks to go, or less. So far, fasting here in PALAM feels natural, doesn't change much from when I was in Shah Alam.  Maybe slightly better, even. Back then, I didn't care much on my diet, only making sure it was enough to keep me going for the tight schedule. As long as it's food, I'd be fine with it. Here, I could have space for my preferences. Granted, there aren't much variety up here, but yknow, we make do with the best we have. What I preferred, I'm free to pursue, and vice versa. It's the little things that feels more gratifying than we'd think. I don't call home that often, once a week, maybe. I guess it was more often than before Gawai, but that's neither here nor there. I call to check in, both for their benefit and mine. I missed one last week, Dad didn't pick up. So I called again tonight, and Dad called back. The usual chit-chat is always refreshing though it rarely cha...

Sooooooo false alarm! Amelia's still here. With me. With us. Wow, I have a hard time believing that, actually. Not in a bad way, that is. Yknow, like Tony have a hard time believing that he had a family that loves him as he is and not because of his money and fame which is The Avengers? Well, without the money and fame 'cause obviously I have neither. Which reminds me, I went watching Civil War yesterday with two of my classmates (I know, social life? Who is me and what has taken my place) and to my credit, I did not broke down and cry in the middle of the airing. I waited till the end. Ha By now, I don't even give a fuck about keeping up shields and stuff. My weird asshole ass is out and free and you are welcome to hop in the weirdness if it's to your liking.  If not, you can kindly walk away without a single sentiment at hand. Well, out and free about my fandoms and ships, at least. Privacy is still privacy. I have no idea why Stucky even exists. I can ...

It's been 6 days since I arrived well and safe at home from PALAM. My break ends on this 16th, which, now I realized, is 4 days away. Holy shit, I didn't even realize that till now lol wtf. Time is like sand around here sriously.  I've only been doing what I always do at home. Chores, read, binge-watch series, chores, and read again.  Speaking of reading, since I finished Mr Mercedes by Stephen King a while ago, I started on Carry On by Rainbow Rowell , the author of Fangirl and Eleanor&Park . I couldn't put it down and ended up finishing it in one day. Like a frickin addict. I finished Mr Mercedes in several weeks, not because I was busy (okay, half of it) or I read slow, it's because I try to savor my time with each book and spend more time with them personally instead of going through each page and to the next like an addict who's itching for a fix. I'm ashamed to say that I couldn't do the same with Carry On , because it's s...

Hey guys. So, I'm back. Freshly 20. *shivers of dread* That was my worst birthday yet, in the history of my birthdays. Granted, I don't normally mind whether or not it was celebrated : regardless the wishes from my closest people has always been more than enough for me. I'm a simple person with simple needs. *shrug* But in the occasion of my phone being broken and just generally useless, for the first time ever, my birthday meant something to me and the voices it normally brings. It felt..lonely. More than once, I was disheartened by the fact that I couldn't receive their wishes or if they even remembered. I only have so little people in my life (who matters) after all. So I got me a new phone, for temporary use till my old one can get fixed at home. That means I'd lost all of my contacts with the exception of my family, Amelia and Irene, and some of the newly made groups that included me. Kei, Kyo, and Fabio stuck around, for a little while. I suppo...

Hello. I have received good news. 3 days ago, my degree interview result came out and I am relieved to announce that I have been accepted into UiTM Puncak Alam in further of my study in TESL for the next 4 years to come. I shall be once more living in Mawar Residential College and continuing my study from where I once graduated my Foundation year, IN-TEC. Few of my old classmates will also be joining me and I am glad to hear that I'll be seeing at least one or two familiar faces around me. It's good to know that the process of adapting to new environment wouldn't be necessary this time. Maybe to new people and new knowledge subjects which I am more delighted about the latter than the former. Then again, that's not new. I'll be registering my student status 21st of Feb, nearing around my 20th birthday. Wouldn't that be a changing celebration of coming age for one. *chuckles* I couldn't wait for the barrage of work I could immerse myself into, finally...

It's been 2 days since we dumped Sis off at Tanjung Malim, Slim River, Perak where she'll start her new job as a full-fledged teacher. When we went to send her off, we think she hit the jackpot pretty good. The school is small, with 30 students in sum meaning no more than 10 kids per class and 9 teachers. She got a temporary room with a roommate at the teacher's quarters and has already found a place to move out when it's time. So far, everything seems to be working out fine. Or so I thought. Sure, Sis had voiced out her fears of being alone despite managing her first few weeks okay during her time at the IPG but I thought that since she managed to gather up acquaintances pretty well there, she'd have no problem doing it again. I think I gathered the wrong memories. This isn't like the IPG, it's like Kolej Matrikulasi Pahang. I remember she spent almost a year at that place, and if memory serves me right, it was her most miserable moments of her li...

Fullmetal Alchemist Brotherhood is the best of the best anime can offer.  I resolutely stand by this statement, even when there are countless of other animes that can teach us many things such as Gosick, Soul Eater, The Children who Chased Lost Voices, Code Geass, Sword Art Online, Tokyo Ghoul, No 6, and many more I could name. The first moment I finished FMAB, it felt like I had gone through a life and came out in tatters. So much truth put in one series. So much life. Especially when it's adorned with death. When has it not? Life and Death goes hand in hand. The one thing I love the most was the First Law of Alchemy, Equivalent Exchange. It is fair, is it not? To give all and take nothing is arguably noble. Modern people would say it's stupid and wasteful. Wise people would know that there is something more at work than the naked eyes. On the other hand, to take all and give nothing is selfish. No arguments. I don't watch these things for entertainme...

Some people have trouble writing from their heart.  During school, this is an advantage, or so what I learned from it. I've never gotten the hang of that stuff up till now. Truth be told, I was never a good writer in school. I couldn't get the points I wanted because I needed to adhere to the Ministry's standard. I couldn't use the words to correctly tell my opinions and feelings because in academic writing, emotions are considered banal. They used the word, "bias". Often times, I had to get additional lessons from the teacher so that I'd write according to the legalized standard of each and each school. I was told that I am writing for an exam.  Not for my diary. Well, duh. You don't see me cursing like a sailor on steroids in an exam paper. The mildest I went was "heck". I even changed "ass" to "butt". (oops, SPN reference. it just happened! xD) That's downright innocent. Other kids need...

Hey fellas. So, I had a pretty good evening yesterday. :) Dee-Dee had one day off from work so she invited me out with some friends. Friends that I am well aware and comfortable with, of course. I had no specific plans (hadn't any of those for months, really.) so yeah, why not.  Besides, I do enjoy their companionship. The boys (Kyo and a friend) picked me up around 4. Of course, my parents are well aware of my plans and Mom had gone out to greet them. Needless to say, she was excited to see Kyo considering she has her heart set on matching up the both of us. Which I continue to protest loudly and clearly. I am not settling down that easy, Mom. Nor that early. I want to see the world. I had worn an outfit not quite like my usual, that would certainly promise a good ribbing and endless teasing from Amelia and Irene but I have no concern of my clothes. I wear what I feel like wearing, no one can tell me otherwise. Even if Mom disapproves, but then again, Mom disappro...