AkImA No NiKkI

If I say 'fuck you Jeff Davis',will he say 'fuck me' back? I'm tempted to try.I hate him,I do.As I assume all Sterek shippers do,but I quote from Stephen King's CELL,"assume makes an ass out of you and me.". I still can't get over Sterek.Still on denial.and delusional.I knew Sterek before I knew TW.That changes everything to me.And yes,I'm a bit biased on Stiles but it's understandable.I love Derek too but I'm leaning on Stiles a bit more. We have something in common,so.

January is ending.I'm still on driving lessons and by now,I think I'll get my SPM results first before I get my driver's license.God,the waiting! *groans* All through the days during my freedom period,I've not liked getting out of house,literally.There are obvious reasons,such as how reluctant I am to put a foot out of the house's compound unless necessary like the driving lessons of which I had to accept that I had to get out of house to attend and I don't like meeting people. Some people don't like reasons.They do things just because.Sometimes I do that too.Do things just because,though most of the time I have reasons for them.Even if I don't,well,I could always create one. The less obvious reason I hate getting out of house is that I'm ashamed of myself.Of course,it's not like anyone's likely to ask and I'm ever so grateful for that.I'm very self-conscious for my age,tho I suppose it's normal...I am 18 after all tho

Yeah,the title says it all.It's like,a divorce filed during the honeymoon phase.I think I could really hear the sound of the pieces of my heart if I shake hard enough,like the sound sand makes when you put them in a glass. It's cruel.It's inhuman. *sobs*sobs* I never thought the one who gave TW life could do this to it's fans.To Sterek fans.I've always thought that false hope is the worst kind of torture you could ever give to people and it is.I mean,why give hope when you weren't gonna keep it alive? Jeff Davis is that kind of man. All that fuss about Sterek and now it's gone.poof.just like that.one word.okay,maybe few words,but not the point here.All it takes for him is just few words to break millions of Sterek die-hard-shippers' hearts into tiny tiny millions of pieces.I hope you feel GREAT about it Jeff Davis. Goddammit this is so hard.

I knew this was coming.It's always like this.The insecurities,the worry,the fear .I know I did good.I know I did nothing to regret. I took every chance in my way and I was sure I made good use of them.I wasn't gonna let all those hard worked study go to waste.I gave it my all. But what if it's not good enough? I seldom worry before things.I worry after them.It's almost the second week of Jan and I'm still going for my driver's license but then,what? What if I failed? What if I'm not accepted anywhere?  For starters,I don't even know where to go! I know where I want to go and if God's wills it,I can.If I'm not accepted there,I could work somewhere else.The thing is,what if nobody takes me? What if I get bad results? despite all my efforts? I'll let Mom and Dad down. What will my younger siblings think of me?  What will Onee-san think of me? I won't get to see Qie and Wa.We'll get separated just like that,moving on wi

I just read Onee-san's latest post.Well,she's still crazy with Sterek for now and I can't say I disagree.Currently,it's the hottest shipping we encountered. I see why she's distraught by the lack of positive reactions towards Derek's personal life.It's true that Derek was not in the wrong in the cause of the Hale fire.Kate was a psychotic bitch.Derek was young and he was manipulated by her. Like Onee-san said,Derek needs a lot of TLC.And it's possible that the only one who can give him this is Stiles,partly because he was the only person who might get how Derek really feels no matter how emotionally constipated he is. Also,Onee-san is a bit on Derek's side but I'm more to Stiles's.I mean that,she feels more for Derek and not that I'm saying he doesn't deserve it  in fact he needs it more than most it's just that I understand Stiles better.Something we can relate. They could really use a relationship upgrade. Of course y

Wow.It's been a while for a book to creep me out like that.I've just finished White Crow and Midwinterblood by Marcus Sedgwick .It's nothing complicated like Stephen King 's or Alex Bell or Anne Rice but it somehow managed to give me more shivers than them. The words he used were fairly simple and blunt yet they give a lot more meaning than the pretty words people use to beat around the bushes. Maybe it has to do something with my preference of straighforwardness.Tho it doesn't mean I don't appreciate pretty words now and then,like Lia Habel and Jodi Picoult .Or even Nicholas Sparks . Midwinterblood is wonderful and beautiful in it's own sense,if not slightly morbid.It's a tale of a pair of lovers who were sacrificed for a ritual in their village. The male swore that he will be reborn in seven consecutive lives to find her and he asked whether will she follow.And he did.Reborn in seven consecutive lives,I mean. They went through the first six

It's really pointless for this kind of thing y'know.It's not like anyone remembers it at the end of the year.I don't.Well,that's only because I have none.I don't make New Year resolution and all that since it's never going to be true anyway. Partly because it's impossible.Muaha3 I think I remember to keep my hair short but I'm too lazy to care about that now.If it gets in the way,I'll cut it. Teen Wolf is coming back soon,I heard from Onee-san(actually from her blog) and Derek 's coming back to Beacon Hills! xD Yippee! xD Sterek is ALIVEEEEE XDD I hope to see TW in full season soon.Honestly,I hadn't even watched one full episode.I knew about the shipping before the story and it all just came along y'know? I know how the plot goes so far but I've never really seen it.I really want to. I'm still sick on Stony though.Can't have enough. xPP There's this fic,  The Hawkeye Hotline ,it was so funny and touc