Let's just get this over with.

Stirred up feelings are the worst.You can't decide what is what and your decision could be entirely faulty to yourself and the people around you.It's all muddled up and I thought I'd gone through the worst of it all.There's always more,now,in the future.

I know what's it's going to be.

I can see the answers,and chance it's correct is boarding around 78%.Told you I'm a bit of psychic.Haha,kidding.Just that I can give a good guess.
When I say that it's a disaster witing to happen...Well,it most likely is.I'm tired of waiting for him to pop out.I just want this to end so that we could go back to chatting animes like we used to.

Just like Tony,I'm afraid that I would lose this thing,this friendship,this comfort we have.Yes,a little bit of rejection too but I'd known it was coming.He'd said it before.This one's entirely on me.

Unlike *Hideki when we spent our childhood together being in each other's space 24/7 and growing up to inevitably falling in love,we had none of that.I could count the days with fingers the time we spent around each other but most of them were the points of important events of my life.He was constantly there in my private bubble where usually I would allow no living person in other than the other 'me's'.Eventually,no matter how much I tried staying away far from that path,I ended up falling for him the same.

I meant for it to be just a far crush.No harm done.No,I don't stalk him.Stalkers are creepy and I have no retrospect to be one.Just a silent crush that I very much intend to take to my grave.Of course,that plan was destroyed when he questions my possible attractions to him.Bah.

That one fall solely on him.
Trust me,I was utterly in shock.Didn't see it coming at all.

Just..Gah,end this for me.

With pleasure.

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