Tuning Out in Silence

Yello.

 I miss Amelia and Irene terribly today. I do miss them in proportion each day but today feels like a big one. Being among people again, among "society" again, tends to have the most flinch-worthy reactions out of me. Such as keeping my poker face cool regardless of how distasteful I find a person's choice of words may be.

 Tact is a value in the polite world. *roll eyes*

 I'm gonna have to re-learn the basics to tune out the inane and annoying mindless chatters that the people around me here seems to have a habit speaking. I find it as incredibly annoying as they find my cursing habits, acting as if every little "fuck" I say is a dishonor on somebody's cow. And to think I won't have to deal with that shit in Uni life. *sigh*

 Also, I am not fucking shy. 
I am reserved.
The kind of shit that falls out of my mouth is one you might need above 18 ears on and I'm perceptive so watch your choice of words because sometimes people don't realize they're being a piece of sexist fucking shit. I can't stand for sexism because I've been objectified and categorized and stereotyped into boxes one time too fucking many.
Pack up your balls or fuck off.



I enjoy sarcasm and nerdy references. In which apparently seems to be lost on the people I hang out with. They're not bad people, just....not my kind of people.
Where the hell is my brethren?
Help a bro out here, man, jeez.

 On the other hand, why do either of my ears are experiencing that kind of partial deafness related to the difference in air pressure because as far as I could tell, none of the others are experiencing it so it's just me.
They're just...ringing the hell out of my eardrums and one is always louder than the other.
Am I being stalked by the fucking Slenderman or something?

 Well, one thing to be sure.
If I get nosebleeds soon, Imma pack up some shit.

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