it hurts...


It hurts..My heart hurts..I don't know why,but it feels like being burned to ashes..I don't know how it feels like to be back stabbed by the one you love the most...And it hurts like hell...I don't want to cry over meaningless things,but nevertheless...My tears flow like crazy and I can't do anything to stop them..I feel like I wanna die,because they are not by my side anymore..No one is.Because whenever I'm hurted,they will comfort me..Faqie,what am I suppose to do?? I'm a useless girl even for myself,I don't need these kind of feelings but why do I keep having them?? It hurts,why do it hurts,faqie?? I'm not good in interpreting my feelings,I'm not good in analysing my heart,but you always get them right for me,you always know what I'm feeling or had felt,you always know what I'm thinking or thoughts,and you always know how to spell it for me..I'm not as good as you are,Faqie,I'm a loser on these things..I don't mind being hurted by someone else,but it hurts so much when the one I love the most back stabbed me and cheated on me..I have always being hurted in various ways,but this is the first time I felt this way..It's new to me,and I don't want it..Usually I would find a positive side of my problems and overcome them,but why can't I overcome this?? It was okay just now,but why does it happens now?? Why can't I overcome this alone?? I'm starting to feel like my life is meaningless right now and the pain is too much for me to take..I'm alone,with my tears and cries..The only sound I heard was the throb of my heart as if being sliced up inside me..I don't know what to do anymore..I'm clueless,because without them by my side,how am I suppose to live my life with the problems I can't overcome?? Faqie,tell me,what am I suppose to do in this condition..I might as well get a heart attack and die here before you know it..If only THAT would happen,I would be grateful enough to leave this world willfully.. I know if you heard me say this,you would probably kick me and punched me to unconsciousness,but please...I'm alone here,facing this heart problem,clueless,blunt,and moreover,dying..I don't know how to deal with this,Faqie..So tell me,what should I do..???

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