serves u right!!

XDD
HAH!! This week had mark a day of my life when an extremely good news reached my ears! Know what?? THE STUPID JERK ASSED EX-FIANCEE' OF LUCHIA IS IN THE HOSPITAL~~~!!!!! XDD (BOOYAH~~!!!!)A few nights ago,I received a message from Luchia through mom's phone,she said,"Farah!!! (K) is in the hospital!!!" (K) is the symbolic name of that son of a bitch,we don't use actual names because of public problems.The moment I finished reading that message,I squirted an evil laugh,I mean like a 'hohohohoho' laugh.I admit,I was happy.X) To think that he actually got what he deserved after harassing her so much,I can pretty damn well say that I'm damn happy like I had just hit a jackpot.Ha ha ha ha~~ After the message,I called Faqie straight away,I clearly want to hear her expression(mind that we could guess each other's expression just by voices).The first time I called,she didn't pick up,the second time I called,she picked up.So,let's see what happened that night. X)

Me:Yo,faqie! I got your message about the son of a bitch got into the hospital! so?? how do you feel??

Faqie:Ah,farah,I'm sorry I didn't pick up your first call.I was asleep,we didn't go to the night prep today.I'm at my dorm now.

Me:Oh,you're asleep? Sorry,am I bothering? Why didn't you go to prep??

Faqie:No,you're not bothering at all.Well,you could say that I'm too lazy to lift my feet for prep.

Me:OoooOhhh,so papa's little princess have been misbehaving while papa's absence eh?? You're a bad princess!You dare to skip night preps without being captured by the hostel's warden and seniors on my dissapearance,you are so going to be punished young lady! XO

Faqie:haha,like you would! Papa and mama always said that even when papa was here,but you guys didn't execute them for real~~ XP

Me:Huh~~(sigh) I guess we have been spoiling you a bit.. -__-"

Faqie:hahahaha~~ nevertheless,you guys are the best papa and mama anyone could ever ask for!

Me:Thanks,baby.Oh,back to the real topic,how's that shit??

Faqie:you seem kinda happy hearing that he went into the hospital..T__T

Me:Well hell yeah,I do!! I mean,how could a 'father' NOT be happy when the harasser of 'his' daughter has been hospitalized?? That's absolutely ridiculous!

Faqie:Well...I am a bit relieved that he won't be able to disturb me anymore,but I think I'm also feeling rather sad...Or something like that..

Me:WHAT THE HOLY SHIT IS HAPPENING AROUND HERE????!!!! Baby,explain to papa.Do you still have feelings towards the crappy shitty bitch?? (>O<)

Faqie:I don't know..It seems like,part of me hates him,but part of me also have..This..leftover feelings...I guess..

Me:..............(let out a heavy sigh)...Nur Faqihah Bt Mohd Zain,do you realise what you're saying? Are your mental in a perfectly suitable condition right now? Have you ever went to your psychiatrist before spitting those words?

Faqie:Yah!! I'm not crazy yet! *pouts*pouts*

Me:then why do you still have those kind of affections towards that bloody shit?? After all the things he did to you,you could still pretty damn well said that you still loves him??!!

Faqie:I didn't said that I love him fully!! It's just...We had many beautiful memories together,not just we had got along since we were babies,we experienced many explores together...It's..hard to forget him entirely...

Me:...................Papa understands that,princess..But please try to understand us as your 'parents'..And as your bestfriends..He may be your first love,and your uncountable memories with him is very hard to forget,but he is not like that anymore...He had hurt you,he is not the same guy you fell your first love with..We don't want you to be hurted anymore,I don't want you to hurt anymore...

Faqie:......I know that...But even so...I...Can't seem to erase this feeling from my mind..I,wouldn't..

Me:Do you couldn't,or wouldn't?? You seem reluctant to let him go..

Faqie:I am..But the realities of when he cut my wounds bled is a true fact,and part of me really hates him to the point of I feel like killing him..The other part of me,well..Still have this feelings for him to the point of I could nor would let him go...

Me:Maybe you can accept that he hurted you pretty damn deep,but not us nor me!! I could never accept that,and I would never forgive him for that!! He had touched your skin,where I think that he should rub his damn shitty hands with a pig's skin and shit before touching you!! I would never allow that bloody asshole to touch you and I would never forgive him for doing thos various things to you!!!! GOT IT???!!!!

Faqie:You could still not forgive him eventhough he's at the hospital??

Me:Who gives a damn shitty ass even if he's in a toilet bowl??!! Even if he were to die,I would never forgive him until he begs you and kiss your feet for forgiveness!! And kiss mine too!!

Faqie:You're evil.... T__T"

Me:Hah!! I can pretty well damn be!

Faqie:I'll try to do something about the other part of me.But it will take some time to erase him entirely..

Me:Whatever it is,I want you to dispose that shit outta your head,got it?! that's an order,young lady!

Faqie:yeah,yeah,I got it.Man,you're pretty bossy..

Me:Mind that I'm doing this for you,young princess! If you're nobody to me,I would have never scolded you for this.I'm doing this for your own good,even if you can't see it.

Faqie:I know,papa and mama have always set the best things for me.

Me:Good that you know.Now go to bed,it's already past 11.You have school tomorrow,don't you?

Faqie:yeah,school's last days.Exams gonna be next week.

Me:yeah,mine too.Learn well,study hard.And get good grades next week,papa will check with your mama as soon as you got your grades.Papa will check mama's too.

Faqie:And mama and I will check papa's grades! see if you're worthy of bossing! hahahaha~~~

Me:yeah,right! I'm the family leader,of course I'll strive for a good mark!Now go to bed!

Faqie;okay,papa.Good night..

Me:Good night,sweetheart.Love you.

Faqie:Love you too.

Me:Send my regards to mama at school,tell her papa misses her so much!

Faqie:okay.Bye.

me:Bye. (whisper) [sweet dreams..]

Seriously,I can't believe she still had those affections.But,nevertheless,I should understand her more.She may looks like someone tough and harsh,but she really is the naive type.really really naive.If you read 'Hot Gimmick',then you would know how naive she is because that heroine character is definitely similar to her.Just a slight differences.Harsh tongue,simply won't admit defeat,that's the differences.I just hope she would realise that he won't change the way she hoped,guys never do.

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  1. FarahNovember 3, 2010 at 10:39 AM

    hahaha,I'm proud to say that myself.Eventhough,I'm a bit ashamed of myself for letting her face this all by herself...I want to be with her the moment she couldn't hold up her tears,I want to curse that bloody shit in front of her,and I certainly most want to stay with her every second to comfort her..I don't know what kind of 'father' am I,nor a bestfriend....

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  2. Airi KisekiNovember 3, 2010 at 10:56 AM

    it's not decision to be away from her. it's what they call 'fate' :) at least you still can hear her voice, and you still can confront her even it's from afar. i bet you're the best daddy n bestfriend she ever had~!! stay strong honey! xDD

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  3. FarahNovember 5, 2010 at 12:15 AM

    I wish so..But nevertheless,'confronting' her in phone is yet the most hurting,though sometimes comforting..It holds me back from the truth..

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