ahh~~

Today's the first day I started my tuition classes,yes,you heard me right,CLASSES.Meaning more than one class in a day.3 CLASSES in a day.I'm not bragging nor complaining,it's just that I feel weird and giddy with the word 'tuition class' because I haven't attended one in so many years ever since I stopped my last one when I was 9 years old.So this was my first day and I should get used to this soon enough.I don't care which one I should attend,mom signed me up on whichever she prefers,wherever it is,and my job is only to let her and obey.Wherever she signed,that's where I'm going.Besides,I trust mom whichever she chooses because I'm pretty sure that she will choose the best for me.She's my mom,Duh~~
But then,until I'm very super duper hyper busy,I could still have some free time to online and enjoy myself to the limit.Super stress is not good,but super leisure is not good either so I'll try to balance both things to make sure I don't hang myself like some students with stress problems.I'm an easy suicidal person ya know,even though I could never commit suicide.Never ever ever never ever ever never ever ever never ever ever.Although I'm the second child in the family and I don't carry much burden as the first one does,I AM the oldest child in the house for now whenever nee-san isn't home so yeah,I have to divide my time to take care of Mia and at the same time doing my study.My other two little bro's,they can take care of themselves because I'm not gonna waste my time on these two.
I miss Faqie.And Ming-Ming.And Azwa.And Dayah.And Yu-senpai.And Fazir.I miss them all..-sigh-...I want to go back to SMIP.I could actually,on condition that I have to get straight A's in my PMR.That's not easy,ya know.NOT EASY.My mom knew that I missed SMIP terribly because I kept SMIP's badge in my wallet and stare at it for hours.She said that if I get straight A's in PMR,I could go back to SMIP without delays.That sounds pretty crazy for me because I'm not really bright and all,and to get straight A's would mean total slavery to books to me.I wish I had a super strong memories that can memorise anything within a second of flash through the books like Zuhaili.She said she doesn't study much but she could remember very well of every details in every subjects.I know,she's the total superb student who has the brain that every human desires.I envy her... x(
But then,who says I can't work for it?? I'll try my definite best,to go back to SMIP,even if that means leaving those in Tanah Merah whom I may miss if I left.I pray for everybody's success,so that I may success as well.Thou frankly speaking,I have this negativity attitude that is being holding my back from dedicating myself to something.I don't mind if it's positive but it's NEGATIVITY we're talking about.Negative means bad.Bad means not good.Not good means I'm doomed.Doomed means remorse.Remorse means regret.Regret means die.The End.

[JunSu,YooChun and Changmin]

Ah,by the way,I found something addictive that makes me forget about 'him'.Thank God.It's DBSK+JYJ.I'm a total die-hard-fan Cassiopeia.Without HoMin,JYJ is not complete and without JYJ,HoMin is not complete.There would never be an individual name,for DBSK stays five and remains five for eternity.Long Live AKTF!!!!!! xD
[Oppa YunHo and Omma JaeJoong]
Oh HoMin,you make me cry just by the sound of your name..

uhuks uhuks uhuks

Oh JYJ,for each and every song you create I will cry and deepens my Cassiopeia tic-fan-scream...

uhuks uhuks uhuks

[the whole family]

Dx

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