fall.

Yesterday I saw him again.Although I have gotten over him a long time ago,seeing him still shivers me.And it was on the first sight.It has been a long time since I last spot him on my eyes..Besides,no matter how many times I told myself that I have gotten over him,the fact that he WAS my first and ever love cannot change.It's a fact.I remember the first time we saw each other after I figured out his betrayal,the moment our eyes interacted,I flinched,spun my body 200 degrees,and ran to the nearest bedroom.Slammed the door hard.It was funny actually,when we got home,nee-san asked about my behaviours.She said I've been acting strange since our way back from grandma's house.I silenced,with nothing said,I gave her a fake smile and ran to the bathroom.I know,I run a lot.I guess,no matter how brave someone is,they would still have something to run from.
I know that time could make me forget him.His sweet talking.His laughing face.Time will help me in this,and it did.But not for long,the moment I saw him again,they returned.The feelings,the giddiness around him,the nervousness.Seriously,when will this end? When I get married? Or when he gets married? Some people finds another love to cover the wound from other love,but I'm definitely not that type of person so I guess the best way is just to throw all of this feelings away.If I can,then I would.I SERIOUSLY WOULD.

I want all of this to end..Just..To end..I'm tired of this unneeded feelings.Tired.Normally I would find something or some new animes to get my mind off,but I can't find anything good.I'll keep looking.If it means total serenity,then I WILL find one.Thank God he's not long at grandma's house,and this is all thanks to Asyraf,my big cousin-bro! Asyraf took him somewhere with a bike,oh Asyraf,you don't know how grateful I am when you persuaded him to leave with you~~!! I could just yell you triple thanks! That's why you're my most favourite cousin of all~~!! xD


Well,I don't wanna write long about him.9 years of total fell-over is enough.Totally enough.

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