teita....

Last night,on the night of 6 January 2011,for the first time in months,I was able to hear her voice again...Luchia...Faqihah....Thank you,God...Alhamdulillah,Ya Allah...Faqie,do you know how many problems have you helped me solved in my head just by hearing your voice??The moment I hear your voice,my mind cleared.All the sourly clouds that shielded my brain vanished into thin air and came out a sparkling rainbow~~ (like Squidword,hahaha) At first,we messaged and then I called her.She picked up on second ring.We talked quite a lot..
Me:hello?? baby??

Faqie:hello..Papa..

Me: (in shock of happiness) you answered..

Faqie:of course,I'm not deaf yet.

Me:So,how's everything going there?? You don't live at the hostel anymore as far as I remember,right?? How's my precious baby doing?? How's mama doing??

Faqie:hey,slow down,I can't answer everything in one time!

Me:yeah,yeah,sorry~ xD

Faqie:things...Aren't going so good here,and yes,I don't live at the hostel anymore.I'm fine,and mama's fine too.And you,papa??

Me:I'm fine,baby.Why? What happened there? How's your study? Mama's?

Faqie:that's what I'm talking about,we got separated into different classes.I'm in class 3AF(3 Al-Farabi) while mama's in class 3AK(Ibnu-Khaldun)..I got so lonely in class,plus when you're not around...

Me:but you guys still go to recess together right?? Right??

Faqie:.......Sometimes....Rarely...

Me:rare?? Whaddaya mean,"rare"?? weren't you guys were supposed to stick together even in different classes? I mean,we were in different classes before,but we went along just perfect! Did you guys fought again??

Faqie:nah,we didn't had a fight,papa.Mama's been going recess with another friend,that's all.Besides,I have Yana(Elyana) with me now,she used to be your dorm mate,didn't she?

Me:Yana?! She's in your class?! Well,[chuckle],that's good for her! She was in the last class last year,didn't she? It's great that she's improved..! [trying to hold back my laugh as good as possible]

Faqie:yeah,she laughs exactly the same like you described,papa..T__T

Me:hehe,that's my girl! Ah,Faqie??

Faqie:yeah?

me:um,nothing! hehe~

Faqie:you're really dying for it,aren't you?? how long has it been since you haven't tasted my fist?? Aigooo~~~!!!! Dx

Me:haha,it looks like the situation turned upside down,papa is being scolded by 'his' daughter! haha~~ xP

Faqie:haha,yeah right!

Me:Faqie?

Faqie:yeah?

me:nothing~ [jumps all about in joy]

Faqie:Farah~~~~!!!!!! DX

Me:what?? I'm not doing anything wrong! hahahahaha~~~~ xD
And let's end this conversation here because if I wrote the whole thing,I'll have to continue in another post because it's too long..Haha..Anyway,what I'm trying to express here is that I'm overjoyed..I was happy,when she answered my calls..Because in some time,some place,I kept calling her...But she didn't answer..I kept calling and calling..But nobody answered..Frankly speaking,I was scared.Terrified.Terrified that nobody will ever answer my call.That nobody will ever turn their back and see me behind them.In other words,I'm afraid that I'll be alone.That's why,whenever she responded to my calls,I was happy..For the first new good thing that happened in this new year of 2011,I felt genuinely indescribably happy...x)


Comments

  1. Airi KisekiJanuary 7, 2011 at 6:55 PM

    wooooohhhhhh~ im FREAKIN HAPPY FOR YOU!!!!!!
    at last u can listen to her again!!! xDDDD
    banzai~ banzai~ banzai~ xDDDDD

    do u mind me asking? why did the new girl makes the things worse? I thought i saw u SMILING and LAUGHING more than usual when you introduced me to her and during i went to your class to learn nihon....

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  2. FarahJanuary 13, 2011 at 8:45 AM

    yea,thanks dude..
    Well,that's what fake faces are for.U don't show them how u REALLy feel and make a false one instead.

    ReplyDelete

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