At times
Few days ago,I re-watched SAO with Mukhlis.I have no intention of finishing it that instant since I could always re-watch it again another time.
Somehow,watching Kirito again reminded me that one thought when I first watched SAO.My first thought of Kirito was "This guy sounds like Syaf.".Honestly,it was nothing more than a passing thought,but that was my first impression of Kirito.
I've never equalized a character with a real person before.Even if I did,I couldn't remember.Mostly for references or comparison,yeah,but equalize?
Being an otaku,I have a line between the real world and the anime world.So that it won't get messed up.I like to keep things where they belong,the type that don't mix work with personal.Work is work,personal is personal.
That way I can focus more and get them done efficiently.
But to me,Syaf seems more of both.
We met online.We became acquaintances based on pure passion for animes online.Though the texts we exchange in real world is more than enough proof that he's real and currently on the same world as I amwhich is Earth,in time,I began to doubt that.
He helped me a lot and I owe him a bunch,he knew some deep shit I never dared to speak to anyone else.That much also proves that he's real.
But now,I wonder if I'd made those memories myself or whether it had just been a continuous dream.Re-reading my diaries as proof they really happened,even that didn't assured me as they used to.
Maybe I wrote in a daze.Maybe I wrote in my dreams.
He pops in and out of my life,sometimes he felt so real as if he was next to me and the next he doesn't feel real at all as if he was just some imaginary character I made in my dreams to fit the role I needed.
At times he is my real-online-bestfriend and at times he is like an imaginary character that's too good to be true.
Oh,well.
Somehow,watching Kirito again reminded me that one thought when I first watched SAO.My first thought of Kirito was "This guy sounds like Syaf.".Honestly,it was nothing more than a passing thought,but that was my first impression of Kirito.
I've never equalized a character with a real person before.Even if I did,I couldn't remember.Mostly for references or comparison,yeah,but equalize?
Being an otaku,I have a line between the real world and the anime world.So that it won't get messed up.I like to keep things where they belong,the type that don't mix work with personal.Work is work,personal is personal.
That way I can focus more and get them done efficiently.
But to me,Syaf seems more of both.
We met online.We became acquaintances based on pure passion for animes online.Though the texts we exchange in real world is more than enough proof that he's real and currently on the same world as I am
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He helped me a lot and I owe him a bunch,he knew some deep shit I never dared to speak to anyone else.That much also proves that he's real.
But now,I wonder if I'd made those memories myself or whether it had just been a continuous dream.Re-reading my diaries as proof they really happened,even that didn't assured me as they used to.
Maybe I wrote in a daze.Maybe I wrote in my dreams.
He pops in and out of my life,sometimes he felt so real as if he was next to me and the next he doesn't feel real at all as if he was just some imaginary character I made in my dreams to fit the role I needed.
At times he is my real-online-bestfriend and at times he is like an imaginary character that's too good to be true.
Oh,well.
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