baby

Looks like a bit of my pathetic life had returned to normal,last night I stayed up late around 4-5 am,so I'm pretty charged up today.I talked to Faqie 2 days ago,we were supposed to meet each other at the hostel on weekends but was postponed to 2 weeks ahead because her dad told her to go home for the week.I admit I was frustrated and kinda pissed with her dad,not only that,remembering that her dad was the one who had the beautiful friendship with that son of a bitch's dad and the reason Faqie and that jerkass engaged in the first place reminds me of the dream in the 'yume ka?' post.(T__T)...But still,I was thinking of getting a new number and use my dad's old phone,truthfully I don't want to use mom's number anymore,the risk of too much money is unbearable..hahahaha~~ XP Plus,I could talk to my baby and my queen freely when I have my own number,it's what you call 'privacy talk'.Faqie's voice turned pretty rough,I guess she have been crying lately,I know because I can feel it.Every time she sheds her tears from her eyes,my internal organs ached as if I had just ran 2000 km,and my heart feels like it's gonna drop down through my mouth because it aches and aches making me suffocate like a dying fish.It gets painful and painful recently,every day I felt it.My pain depends on how much pain she felt,it seems like we share the same soul,as if we're connected to each other I don't know through what but we surely feel each other's pain and effects on our hearts.

Also lately I've been remembering our moments together back,back when we were at the hostel.When Azwa was still with us,when she didn't get out from the hostel yet.At that time,Dayah(Karen) was also still with us but she moved to another school sooner than I do,about in October or so...We loved to tease Karen,because she's such a crybaby.The first time we met her at the cafeteria,her eyes were swollen and red of lack of sleeping because she cried in her sleep.We love her dearly,eventhough we may seem to bully her all the time because she's the youngest among us and the way she was angry at us is very lovable,we could not resist ourselves from bullying her..TvT But we-I also love her laughter,and she loves to hear my stories of anime.Well,it's a routine for us to tell stories when we were done with our homeworks,especially me as the 'father' who had to tell the stories.But not favle stories,anime stories.Yup,they're otakus,just like me.=) And I could never forget their laughters every time I tell them stories,especially Ouran High School Host Club,they laughed till their tears drop out! I told them stories as many as I can remember,and they would always request for more,you can imagine the image of a family there.The image of me as the 'father',having Luchia and Karen on my laps while stroking their heads,Hanon sitting beside me with hot chocolates on plates,and Seira near Hanon helping her with chores.I loved that image.

[Sarah,I'm gonna show you the drawing of that image~~!!! XDD]

So,my imaginations runs wild lately.And probably,I will have the courage to finish the sequel of the 'Mermaid' story I've been trying to continue...T__T