AkImA No NiKkI

'Hikari' in Japanese means 'light' or rather 'a ray of light'.When I was a kid,I loved to stare at lights,beautiful lights.Because I seldom saw any in any of the people around me including myself,I don't mean just any usual lights here,people.I'm talking about lights you can't see with your eyes,but you see it with your mind or rather you call a heart.I know,normal parents don't usually teach these things to a 7 years old daughter and my parents didn't taught me that either.I just...Somehow saw them.Don't ask me how,or why because I never thought about it or did I ever tried to give a thought at all.I just saw them,and sometimes I don't.Because it started with my sister's life,the first light I saw and also the first darkness I fell.Ya know,nee-san's life seemed to fill with agony and despair.She came home from school with a sour face and getting in fights with mom and dad about her studies,I watched them.Dad screamed,mom snap...

Ugh..Yabe..Yabe...Know why?? Because I HAD to forgive the worst guy on earth..Know who is he?? LUCHIA'S FIANCEE' .I just bought my new number yesterday,and called Luchia that very night.It was thrilling to hear her voice again,I was reborn.Then she told me she wanted to move out from the hostel,I asked her why,she said she doesn't know.Probably bored from the fights with the form 4 seniors,but if she moved out from the hostel,it would be very hard to get to school in time.Her house was like a thousand miles away from KB! But then,it's her choice,if she wanted to drop out from hostel,I can't do anything about it which is the most hateful thing in my life.Then I asked her,if she go back home every day from school she would have to meet the wrathful fiancee' of hers and she said, dead people can't meet the living .I repeat ,"DEAD PEOPLE CAN'T MEET THE LIVING". I was kinda surprised,wow,my wish was granted that fast?? I asked her,is this tru...

Oh GOD...I mean it when I said I had forget him already..Didn't I?? I mean,I was super duper dead serious when I said to her that ,"I had forget all about him in these few weeks,I can live my life normally now", right?? So tell me...Why the shitty bloody hell that my heart skipped a beat when I saw him yesterday at Grandma's house in TM??!!!! And not only that,after it skipped a beat,it began to beat faster than ever!!! GUWAAAAAAAHHHH~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!! XO Dude,it was just a glance!! He glanced at me at the same time I noticed his appearance that evening!!! It was just a bloody glance, DAMMIT~~!!!!!!! DX LUCHIA,I NEED YOU RITE NOW~~~~!!!!!!!!!!! - screams loudly to the top of her lungs in her mind till her ears droped from her head- Nanairo no kaze ni fukarete tooi misaki wo mezashiteta yoakemae kikoeta melody sore wa tottemo natsukashii uta higashi no sora eto habatakuu torii tachi saa takaraji manii yukeru Ok,that was weird.Why did this song suddenly came up?...

ehem,ehem..Ni first time aq post dlm B.M so ayat2nye mngkin jiwang sket la.Lagipon tkde mkhluk laen yg mmbaca slain Sarah dn bbrapa kwn aq lgi je so buat ape nk kisah.XP Ada bbrapa kisah dlm post kli ni so dharap anda tlh brsedia scara mental. ~~~Jeng Jeng Jeng~~~ KISAH 1) Baru2 ini,aq mngalami KESAKITAN YANG TERAMAT SANGAT .Aq tk tau la,mngkin saraf aq terencat ke ape mlm tu tpi yg aq pasti ape yg aq ingat adlh KESAKITAN yg tk trhingga shingga pda satu saat Allah menarik sume KESAKITAN tu dgn membolehkan aq mngeluarkan air mata yg tk trkira .Kesakitan yg aq mksudkan ialah perasaan tk boleh brnafas,kekejangan lengan kanan dan kaki kiri,merasakan sesuatu yg trsngat berat atas dada dan kesakitan yg membakar dlm kerongkong.Itulah kesakitan yg aq alami.Aq tk ingt ape yg trjadi lpas tu tpi aq ingat,lpas aq struggle nyawe2 ikan ats katil ntuk mghadapi KESAKITAN tu,aq mnangis bukan secara diam tetapi dgn kuat. Bagaikan meraung KESAKITAN. Ya,prkataan tu mmg sesuai. MERAUNG KESAKITAN .Aq tk ...

Ah....I've been dying to get a new number now...I want to have a maxis,017- number that matches with Faqie,that way we won't have to spend much money on each other's number..(>^

XDD HAH!! This week had mark a day of my life when an extremely good news reached my ears! Know what?? THE STUPID JERK ASSED EX-FIANCEE' OF LUCHIA IS IN THE HOSPITAL~~~!!!!! XDD (BOOYAH~~!!!!) A few nights ago,I received a message from Luchia through mom's phone,she said," Farah!!! (K) is in the hospital!!!" (K) is the symbolic name of that son of a bitch,we don't use actual names because of public problems.The moment I finished reading that message,I squirted an evil laugh,I mean like a 'hohohohoho' laugh.I admit,I was happy.X) To think that he actually got what he deserved after harassing her so much,I can pretty damn well say that I'm damn happy like I had just hit a jackpot.Ha ha ha ha~~ After the message,I called Faqie straight away,I clearly want to hear her expression(mind that we could guess each other's expression just by voices).The first time I called,she didn't pick up,the second time I called,she picked up.So,let's see what hap...

Hmmm....Actually,I don't think of posting anything for now but I changed my mind after reading a few of Sarah's new posts in her blog,L0L...Lately,I've been flashbacking about Karen ,I wonder is she alright?? It's been a while since we saw her laughing face..A lot of times have been very hard for us because we don't have the 'special ' relationship like Faqie and I,we can't feel each other's condition,so we have no idea what's happening to each other..I hope she's okay,because she's quite small and easy to be bullied,we-as in me (father), Azwa (mother) and faqie (first daughter)-are really worried about her..It's not like she could or would fight anyone if she's being picked on..T__T I have a bad feeling about her... Oh,by the way,Sarah.You told me that you want me to teach you the 'ha-ha-mask'?? don't be ridiculous! There's no such thing! It's just a fake expression that you make on your face evrytime you...