AkImA No NiKkI

YATTTAAAAAA~!!!!! XDDDD ITS OVER ~!!! FINALLY OVER ~!!!!! XDDD SPM IS FINALLY OVER~!!!! XDDD I am now officially a free person~!!! X"D *sob*sob* so touching.... (TTwTT) The moment I've been waiting for all my sad sad highschool life..The end of it! XD  Can't believe its all over now..xD no more freaking addclasses..no more teachers..tho that one's likely to be missed .Can't say I won't miss having other people shoulder the burden over our petty problems. Hahaha~ xPP Besides,the teachers at SMK TM(1) are all very dedicated and loving persons,unlike most people who have the guts to call themselves 'educators' but were really only after the satisfaction of driving kids to live their life their way.Like leeches.Or parasites . Those teachers are the very reason we all get to answer our papers quite well,if I may say so.They earned our respect ,our loyalty ,and our love .For every single sensei that had taught me,thank you so much. Rahimah-s...

Hey y'alls.How's life treatin' you? Well,for SPM students,I can say it's pretty much okay.Um,scratch that,that was meant for me.What I'm saying is life is quite okay at the moment. Trial is few weeks away and I dunno why but I'm kinda relaxed about it.Everyday,I just continue my routines as always.Study when I have studying to do and play when I have some time for myself. Which basically means reading a book (or book s ) or facing the PC for something.Lately I've started to bring books home from the library-I've brought them home legally and confirmed through the authorized system so no worries. Given that I'm an introvert most of the time,when I hold books in my hand I seldom pay attention to the things around me.When I have something to read,I read in whatever way possible;be it walking,lying,shopping or even talking. something like this... *sigh* There are a lot of good books in the library...=////=   *dreamy* That's books. ...

During my stay at KB for 5 days,it was a lot of fun. XDD For the first 3 days of my stay at the PSPN Centre's hostel,I met Lyana , Anis and Wahyu . I met Lyana before,at the NILAM district competition and she was glad to see that someone she knew ended up there with her. 3 days together at the hostel seemed like we've known for a month.Hahaha~ I suppose being together 24-hours does that to you.  After I won 2nd place,I thought about staying a little longer,to have a chance to meet Qie,Wa and possibly Azer too.Plus,my classes were canceled for 2 days. It was a bit of an effort,to persuade Mom and Dad to let me stay,but it worked.My uncle lend me a place to stay for the night.^^ As it was,I met Qie. She was as lovely and cute as she had always been.She hasn't changed a bit. My princess . I got her to stay at my place for a fortnight,though it was a bit of a fight.She was never allowed to stay anywhere outside of her house,even to her granparents',so that com...

Yeah,yeah,it's the same thing all over again. Aku da penat l yn mkhluk2 yg dipnggil mnusia nih.Asal diorg x phm yg mamat tu dgn aq da lame break? Nk kata aku x tegur,nak bebuih da mulut aku ni. Hari2 duk ulang bende same je. It's like they're BLIND to the fact that he and I have broke up. Huh,and they call themselves MY friend.Aku tau,mgkin salah aku jgk sbb pndai sgt gi ckp kt diorg.I dunno,I thought MAYBE they'd understand. One of the many reasons I HATE this friggin' place and the people in it. Aku paham,it's a joke . Bukannye aku xleh nak joke ke ape tpi panggil name die brulang2 kali dpn muka aku mmg rude gile. Ni da lebih. Wahai manusia2 sekalian,korg tau tak aku ni spesies korg? Sepelik manapun aku, sejarang manapun korg tgok aku berekspresi ,aku MASIH sorg manusia. Sorg mkhluk Allah yg,walaupun sikit, ADE perasaan. Bukannye aku xde mintk korg berenti pnggil aku dgn name dia.Korg nak aku melutut ats tanah dan merayu kt kaki korg sup...

Well,not so crazy. Just a bit differences in the routines. On Mondays,I stay back at school for librarian duties.Usually it always ends up me reading a book forgetting about the time to close the library. And usually,I climb the back gate (I wear pants under my skirt) when I go home cuz it's closer to home than the front gate. Growing up with the guys from my neighbourhood,climbing isn't so hard for me.It's practically natural. But today is a little bit hard. Around 3.55,the sky was darkening and I decided it was time to close the library.I woke Fuyuki who was snoring on the book Vampire Plague which she fell asleep halfway through. 4.05,the wind was very strong.I was on my way to the back gate when the wind caught my   'tudung' and the rain poured.It was a storm. I hurried to the nearest hall and took shelter in a secluded storage room when it gets awfully windy and wet. I waited for around half an hour for the rain to slow down.The storage room was emp...

I want to go back. Goddammit I miss them so much I can't stop remembering them. Azwa and Faqie. Wa and Qie. My "wife" and my "daughter". I want to go back to that place,where there were only us. Even after 2 years I stepped out on them,I've never stopped regretting it. I was always seeing that image in my head. That image of them,and me,in our place,but not complete. With Wa and Qie,both "me" was present.Stabil. The one with control and the one with none. It was why I felt so comfortable and at ease with them. Because I would never fear of losing control. After I left,I kept myself from the outside society. I have friends,but both "me" was absent.I felt empty. Until she came. Fuyuki (not real name) . With a faint resemblance to my "daughter",I was immediately attached to her. It's more right to say....That I was attached to her because she reminds me of them. Wa and Qie. Fuyuki is a beautiful girl,but s...