AkImA No NiKkI

Cohabitation with other people who aren't your family is strange. I mean, naturally, right? That much is obvious. But I don't know how to describe it. It's not like it's giving me problems, or discomfort. Rather, each of us are just living at our own pace while sharing a place. Knowing the bare minimum about each other, and communicating when purely necessary. Occasionally, we get irked by each other's habits, though showing no verbal distaste of it for the sake of keeping the peace, we get by. Even using "we" somehow feels like a unnatural context, because we are strangers sharing a space. It made me think how awesome it'd be to have my own place, living alone. I usually don't cook, but when I was living on campus, it was a violation. Somehow living here still feels like I'm on campus, without the HEP bullshit. I still don't cook, two of my other housemates do (probably because they're the ones who lived here first and are u...

It's February and we're safely well past the flood season. Temperature's hot in the afternoon but it settles very nicely with a breeze and shades as the evening creeps in. It's been a week since I started class observation at SMK TM (1) a.k.a my old highschool meaning there's another week to go before it ends. Thankfully, the process on the first day went smoothly for me. I did have to wait a couple of hours in the morning because there was a Going Back To School ceremony in the halls and the principal had to entertain guests before he comes into the office but soon as I showed him the letter and explained everything, there was little to no problem with the rest. I was referred to the PKP (Right Administration Secretary) right away to settle my schedule and my teacher trainer.  I went around introducing myself, or, re-introducing myself, in any case, to the teachers. Most of them remembers me as a familiar face and I feel honored. I remember them too, well, ...

I AM DYING I AM POSITIVELY DYING I KNOW I SHOULDN'T BUT EP 10 JUST CAME OUT YESTERDAY AND WE GOT MONDAY AND TUESDAY OFF SO I FIGURED IT'D BE FINE TO FINALLY BINGEWATCH HAIKYUU!! SEASON 3 KARASUNO VS SHIRATORIZAWA AND I JUST FINISHED BINGE-WATCHING IT THAT'S WHY THIS POST IS GOING TO BE IN FULL CAPS LOCK BECAUSE I AM SCREAMING FAIRLY WARNED ALSO THERE WILL BE NO PUNCTUATIONS WHATSOEVER  BECAUSE I AM SCREAMING AND DYING AND WHEEZING AND SPAZZING ALSJSSDUFYURFYBGCTYBGCDSBJSJDGHSDFGKSDEYRETIRYTYRUODJHJDFBJSDBCJBCBVJDGFHJGUGSSHHFHRUGURYRYTUROEPWODASKDJDJHFDBVNBVNCXVBJFHGHJGRYSEURYYTIUAKHSDJGADFHGGASKDLFLKJSDKKJFHRTURTIRFUSADJHDKJAJKSAKJFBVCNBVNBVNCBVNBVJHFGGFSUKJDAHFJDBMNBVMNCVHJDGFKJGKSFGLDSHGKJDBVBVMNCBVNCMBVHJBV OOHHHHHHHH MYYYYYYYY GGGGOOOOOODDDDDDDDD MY SOOOOOONNNSSSSS MY BABIESSSSSSSSSSSSSS TSUKKI YOU SALTY SON OF A MAMA CROW I AM SO FUCKING PROUD HOW HOW HOW THE HELL IS MY HEART SO FULL AND HAPPY AND I AM CRYING DEAR GOD I AM ABSOFUCKINGLUTELY CR...

Yesterday we (me with three classmates) went to SK Slim Village (where Bro teach) for a project observation for a subject. Of course, we cleared out the formalities between the faculty and the school parties beforehand. We rented out a car for half a day with a fairly reasonable price and went off our way with the help of a navigational app. I have my agenda for suggesting the school in the first place, naturally, that is to pop-in and see Sis for a short while. The rest didn't seem to mind, taking my connection with a willing candidate a plus, if anything else. If they minded, they didn't show. In the middle of a class activity It was fun, and our observation went smoothly. I daresay to expect the end result to be well -if not slightly tilted- done. Though that is yet to be judged by the lecturer lol We finished by the end of the class, and gave our respects and thank-gift by the office before leaving for Sis's house (I'm not sure if the term 'my second ho...

This few days has been....interesting, to say at least. It's 2 days after EidulAdha which, might I say, could be on the not-so-enjoyable holidays list I created after the big flood incident 2 years ago. It's not the holidays, it's the events that inadvertently happened on it. The healing scratches on my right wrist aren't so bad. I'm used to them by now, being familiar with wounds from cats and such. It's my own fault anyway, the cat at gramma's house has never been too friendly with people. (shrugs) NOT my hand. This is a random picture from Google search. I'm too lazy to put up the wounds on my own wrist. Or hand. Or whatever it is kids call it these days. Then the abrupt strong storm that passed through 2 nights ago and another passed again last night, though thankfully wasn't as strong. It wrecked a little bit of the part of our roof so we had to deal with some leaks from the ceiling in the living room, my room, and Nana's room. Dad h...

Right. I meant to update soon as I got home but.....yeah. I procrastinated. It's our long-planned holiday together since we got into degree programme and though it felt like it ended before it started, meeting them face to face again was worth it. Worth it. So fucking worth it. Persuading Mom to let me go was a bit of a doozy. Thank God Dad didn't have an issue with it. I kinda don't get it though, because I've been to places on my own before and she didn't have any objections but when I wanted to skip states to see my bestfriends, she suddenly backtracked? If it was a sense of danger, then wouldn't me skipping places on my own be more dangerous than me diddling over to see people who cares about my safety more than myself? Anyhoo, Dad managed to give me the go. The bus in TM is shit. My ticket was at 9 a.m which they tell me the earliest but after waiting from 8.30 to goddamn 11, I was spitting F-bombs like it was free candy. When I asked, they casuall...

Oooossuu~ Okay, recently I've started watching Haikyuu!!! and it's basically the first time I've ever watched a sports-based anime, KageHina pairing notwithstanding. I mean, I like the pairing first before the anime and that's usually how I find my fandoms. I see a cute pairing, I wonder who they are, I look them up, and proceed to ship them. Then I see their friends, and I wonder how the plot went connecting around them. Eventually, I would've been sucked into the whirlpool of binge-watching the series and ended up loving them even more. It's a series of unending obsession with one thing after another, tbh. LOL KageHina pairing is cute as balls, I admit. They remind me a lot of SasuNaru, in a way, but not entirely similar. Hinata has as much character as Naruto and Kageyama to Sasuke. And DaiSuga is definitely the Dad-Mom pairing of the group, although to be frank, when you're in a more-than-5 group of friends, you're likely to have one Dad fr...

This has happened too many times to my liking. I can disregard it and turn the conversation to a more pleasing note but there's only so much a HUMAN can take. I can turn a blind eye because he's my supposedly best friend BUT BEST FRIENDS AREN'T SUPPOSED TO CHANGE WHO YOU ARE. And before you ask, yes, I am emotionally unstable. I don't get what he's pissed about. Just because I don't flirt with him anymore doesn't mean it has to be that way for us. He has a girlfriend now and I'm not comfortable doing that anymore. SO FOR FUCK'S SAKE GET YOUR FUCKING HEAD OUT OF YOUR ASS AND FIGURE YOUR SHIT OUT BEFORE YOU RAVE STUPID RIDICULOUS STUFF AT ME. I have explained to him EXTENSIVELY why and how I don't reciprocate his flirts anymore. I don't like it. I'm not comfortable, no matter what he or his girlfriend says. I AM NOT COMFORTABLE SO WOULD YOU GET THAT FUCKING INFO INTO YOUR HEAD AND RESPECT MY FUCKING COMFORT LINES PLEASE. Th...

We all have limits. Some make it a point to keep pushing theirs, to prove something to themselves. Some just try not to reach that point at all, fear of what would happen if they ever cross that big, red line. It makes sense for it to be red, y'noe, 'cause red usually means STOP or DANGER. I want to address a lot of people with this issue, but honestly, it's not like I know that many people. There are those who loves taking risks, right? And there are those who take them as a tough decision. Big, small, a last effort. The similarity between these two is that they are well aware of the pros and cons of the decision they make, regardless of their reactions afterwards. Then....there are the unfortunate people who decides without knowing the risks. Which leads to the consequences as any other, but them feeling like they have no idea where it came from. Risks sound like it's a bad thing, but it doesn't always have to be. A good decision leads to positive conseq...

I'm slowly working my way through my latest fic and occasionally, whip up some on-spot ideas on the sketchpad. Though I need to be reminded to use my spaces carefully 'cause economy right now is worse and stuff are really getting expensive. I wonder if our country's gonna burn like Africa.  Oops, jinx. Regardless, with the rate we're going on, any jinxing isn't gonna make much difference. *shrug* I'm catching on Stony for a while, meaning that the Destiel ship has been put on hold for the moment. That talk I had with Onee-san few days ago made me think of Stony and now, I'm just filling up the urges to read some fluffy fic and coo adorably at these two grown-up idiots waddling their way through angst and emotionally stunted brains to get their heads outta their asses and see the real love in their freaking eyes. Call it avoidance or whatever but I love these idiots. Yeah get over it. Don't question my OTP. I will go down with this ship. I m...

Ugh so many to do. So many on the list. So many tests. So many quizzes. So many troubles.  Drama performance is on the night of 25th which is to say, not far away now. But because it is a group performance therefore involves more than one people, it is really fucking annoying when one person couldn't make it to practice because they're lagged behind in their assignments. got that in one, Merls. Hello, other people had it just as bad okay. We finished ours just in time for practice while you just wouldn't make time over your kdramas and whatnot. Okay, so I'm a workaholic but at least I get my job done. And yeah, sometimes I make mistakes but I try to make up for them. What have YOU done, huh? The drama is one thing. The finals is definitely another thing. it's on 30th, which is 5 days just after Reader's Theater.  Right now we're just catching up on all the late quizzes and tests. And not to mention is the deadline week for most assignments. ...

Beware. Fangirl mode is on . I just remembered that I haven't finished watching No.6 yet and with the recently acquired wifi, it was a piece of cake. (Literally, the wifi was so damn fast.LOL! xD) The last two episodes made me cry. I THOUGHT HE DIED. I THOUGHT HE FREAKIN' DIED ON US!! DAMMIT SHION STOP GIVIN' BOTH NEZUMI AND US FANGIRLS A SCARE! Although he was dead. For a few minutes. Safu -bless her soul, aka Elyurias, gave him another chance. I didn't get how, though. Was Elyurias some kinda forest goddess? Who knows? The anime were too short. *shrug* LOOK! LOOK HOW PERFECT THEY ARE! THEY FIT LIKE FREAKING PUZZLES! TELL ME IF SHION DESERVED TO DIE WHEN HE CAN HAVE THIS IN HIS FUTURE!!?? Nezumi was already badly injured and when Shion died (briefly) , he wanted to die with him. I was like, NOOOO!! SHION CANNOT DIE!!! HE HAS A BRIGHT FUTURE WITH NEZUMI AND HIS MOTHER IS STILL OUT THERE WAITING FOR HIM TO COME HOME AND HE HAS A NAMESAKE CHILD TO LOOK AFTE...

I don't remember when did I start to stop caring whether or not people paid attention to me. Thus I ceased to pay attention to them because I believed in equality. Though I struggled for my sister's when I was young (the one she remembers as the abso-freakin-lutely annoying brat who keeps getting in her way and ruining her plans and destroying her teenage life-I remember she used to call me idiotic names that hurt even though I didn't quite understand what it means at that time-and sometimes still do when we fight) , I grew out of it and learned to accept what she's willing to give instead.  After a few years of high school and leaving the sides of my other half, Faqihah , the pressure of bottling up was turning into a horrible burden on me.  I didn't look for willing ears to listen nor any supposedly-willing shoulders to cry on but all the same, I was easier to spill when a concerned person decided to drill them out. I was never a people person, that muc...

Fucking people. you know,God gave us this very awesome special gift called BRAIN and we're supposed to THINK with that instead of using our butts .Do not waste such beautiful gift! Now I see this place for what it really is. A hellhole . At first I was kind of weird,thinking, why the fuck are these Muslim females not wearing hijab? A voice suspiciously sounds like Onee-san would say ,"Islam atas name je tu." and then I would think, Islam REQUIRES female Muslims to cover our 'aurat' and I see that SOME of these creatures pray but if they pray,then why do they nor cover their 'aurat' ?? I know what their regular excuse if asked of this question( no doubt they've been asked this quite a LOT) - "tak sampai hidayah la you.." or "it's a choice! Everybody has one!" or "belum lagi kot...nanti2 la.." or "why do YOU care?" or "mind your own fucking business you little bitch." and so on. Of...

Two more days. I will be registering as a TESL student in UiTM Shah Alam,Selangor,Kuala Lumpur. Yesterday,I spent the afternoon with my 'family' .I went with Mom and Onee-san and my baby brother and sister and promised to meet the both of them at the mall. It's been so long.2 years since I last saw them. I snuck into SMKIP when I was 15 once.My school was on early leave and SMKIP wasn't so I had a plan to infiltrate.It was fairly easy because I chose a non-studying day.I met Wa and then slept at Qie's house for three days. Yesterday,I was so happy . I can't remember the last time I felt so   genuinely ha pp y.The bubbly feeling in my chest makes me understand why authors refer it to 'as if floating in the air' .It feels like it.Like you're soaring above the sky. Qie brought her two little brothers because she can't seem to leave them elsewhere and it's become a habit over the few months at home to bring them everywhere.I didn't...