I am someone who takes full rensponsibility of my actions and words,therefore I think before I speak,and sometimes I prefer to say nothing.But I keep silence most of the time,especially when in groups.I only talk much when I know who I am with,who's beside me,and who am I talking to.Not many people that could make me feel easy to speak,bu there are such people.They are faqie,azwa,dayah,memey,fazer,sarah and some of my childhood friends..Among thousands of friends I have and thousands af people I know,they are the special persons that could make me easy to express although there are limits to each of them..But still,I wish that they will find their happiness because they brought mine.The happiness I never seem to have since I was little,and I seldom care about it too,thinking it wasn't important...Thank you.
Moving with grief.
warning for typos, since I'm typing with tears in my eyes and flowing down my cheeks. Grief is a weird emotion, one I have been trying to let myself feel at a pace I could have the capacity for. It's been slow, but I know it moves. Today was a day I felt I had a good capacity to let myself sit and feel the waves as they fill up through me. Maybe because I'm going through my period, so my hormones are unbalanced, but it had its pros and cons. It's been 9 months since Tech passed. I am still grieving, and I don't know how long I would still be. I don't think it matters. It definitely feels weird for me to be feeling so much grief over a Minecraft roleplayer's passing when I didn't feel anything when my grandparents passed. I had no doubt my family members would look at me with a stink eye for making that comparison, but matter of the fact is, I didn't have a lot of memorable memories with either of my grandparents. Tech helped me survive many insom...
citpoodaaahhh!..hey dear, happiness may come all the way if you wish for it..no matter what situation you are in, with just a bit of motivation and positive thinking, you may smile without any hesitate..seriously! chill la weh..tiap2 hari mari bule gak xrok boh..hahahaha =)
ReplyDeletehaha,abg long jumpe gak deh blog una. tkde la,saje je nk disgorge feeling nie~~~ sbb una hrap blog ni akan dibaca oleh org yg una tujukan.
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