futan? ore no?

Hirasshaimasen~! x3
I don't know if this struck u weird but in every(not all,I guess) sad post,the opening wasn't so very sad.Today my post is going to be about "burden"."Futan" in Japanese means "burden" (correct me if I'm wrong) and shit,I'm writing like at 3.46 a.m right now.It's cold and I'm shivering in my pants.When I said "burden",I didn't mean it spesifically,I meant generally,as in all types of burden.Let's talk about the obvious first.

1)Students.
                 The pure burden of being a student is as normal as every human who goes to school and work.Studies and works.Ever heard of suicides of over-stressed students? Of course we do.In fact,it happens a lot nowadays.I know that studies are important for success and pushes to keep moving,but what happens if we over-push? It becomes stress,right? From stress,fear will develop.When it does,some people go loo-loo just from thinking about it.Thou I guess I'm okay so far with my studies..(I think)

2)Families.
             Now this's my problem.Remember that I used to school at KB 2 years ago and moved back to my hometown soon after? This's the main reason.I can't blame them for my decisions,so I blame myself.Now,the burden gets heavier and heavier each day.Every Friday morning I have a fight with mom and dad,well with this rebellious stage I'm at,I can't help it! I don't have other burdens other than this! And it's deepshit heavy! Ever since I moved back 2 years ago,I can't help feeling a little bit burdened by responsibilites plus with my studies hammering my skull every shitty days.....
I seriously need some comforting right now.Which can only completely be done by Faqie and Azwa who are very far away from me this moment..............I miss them...........

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