AkImA No NiKkI

I should think as these as obstacles,shouldn't I? I mean,it's a bit..familiar,with some things we read on the newspaper or something. I'm in the middle of my SPM Trial and I've only got a few more days to go.Just as long as I can hold up until then,it should all be fine.Everything should be alright. It doesn't matter that I've started to pick up the obvious simptoms of a fever,just like last time on our mid-year exam.The flu'll get pass. It's Mia who's on my head right now. Sure she's a brat for her age,4 and whatnot.But I'd still love her the same as I'd love all my siblings.Even Muzakkir who'd been the black sheep of the family since he was her age. I would worry all the same if any one of us is sick. And Mia is extremely sick. Having to stay at the hospital is the worst point I could think.She may be annoying at times,a trait she dearly inherited from her oldest brother,but she's still our lovable little sister.Of course...

Gah.I'm in the middle of Trial SPM. Is it weird that I would have cravings now?Of course not. *roll eyes* It's perfectly understandable that I should crave those of which I cannot have for now.Because I'm HUMAN .And human craves what they cannot have.Even for now. Which is to read. GOD,I WANT TO READ. No,I don't mean textbooks though those ARE the things I should be reading now,I meant the books I have just recently acquired from Popular.I swear we go there often enough the workers would have recognized us immediately.I would be one of those regular customers.My hands are practically itching to hold them. Especially Elegy .It's the end of the Watersong series ! Dx How can I NOT itch to read it??!! DDXX Oh God please speed up the time and get this whole SPM thing over with so that I can finally get my hands on those books. They look so lonely and cold without me!!   Gaaaaarrrggghhhh~~~  Isn't reading a noble past-time?? Why aren't I allowed to...

I've just finished Kuroshitsuji I and II and may I conclude: It's frustrating. (T^T) I mean, Kuroshitsuji I was great and amazing and all,and I really loved the way the story goes.Until,I finished the Second one. [Ciel Phantomhive and Sebastian Michaelis-bonded till death] The frustrating thing is..The ending .Some may see it as the ultimate happy ending since Ciel and Sebastian will be together forever lest one of them decide to kill each other but for me,all I see is frustration . Because both of their wishes were denied. What makes it more frustrating is that the plot was great,the twist of events,the hidden histories,all to end in such..Well, incompetent tragedies . It's like wrapping a grand,beautiful,elegant cake in a plastic bag. *sigh* The ending I wished for is that Ciel will die and Sebastian will finally have his soul.After all,he kinda deserves it. *shrugs* A contract is a contract.Such turn of events that lead to such lying ending that overturns...

I don't know why I'm so stupid about this.Haven't I had enough? It's already broken once,it doesn't need another blow for another break . I need to hit something. What the fucking hell did I see in him ,I don't even know. He was never my type and he annoys me to no end.I hated people like him and tried my best to avoid him when he didn't. But then I got tired,and I let him in.Behind the walls and the locks,I stupidly let him in after all the pain's worth of that first love.And  not to mention,right after I'd worked hard to stand up again. *chuckles* What an imbecile. It's hard. It's different yet altogether the very same . I tried forgetting him once and when I thought I succeeded,he somehow broke through again.It's hard with him,because I learned to love him -bit by bit. I earned this feeling,little by little,with his stupid efforts of breaching through.That's why it's hard. When he does something like this-being imm...

Eid is 3 days away.I suppose that's for news. Yesterday is my 'daughter''s birthday.She's finally 17 of age,like Wa and me.When we texted last night,something was bothering her.Her tone wasn't quite right,like she always does.Something was bothering her indeed. I thought of the pain two nights ago,on the very night of her birthday. I wondered if she felt it too. My pain. It was brief.Lasted for 2-3 hours or so.The reason? Well,an old wound was re-opened and bled..something like that.It was something from the past-the painful part of the past- and an event somehow pried the wound open.Something like Deja vu. *sigh* again and again,hurted the same way.Life has a funny twist,don't you think? But,for the most of it,mou nareteru shi. Yes,it hurts.So? It's not like it's something new.I've faced this before and no matter how much it hurts,I'll just have to deal with it same as always. Because I'm used to it. [so it hurts...

O'TANJOUBI OMEDETO NUR FAQIHAH BT MOHD ZAIN~~!!! XDD My dedication to you,my Princess...(^V^) May you always be blessed with His love and forever be in His protection. Because Papa can't always be there for you,but Papa will do her very best to keep you and Mama safe. But I can always pull this trick for fun..Hehehe XPP

Nobody can ever understand one's feelings unless they too had undergo the same experience.It's impossible. But as humans,we are gifted with "Sympathy". Even though it's not exactly fulfilling,but it's enough.The most that one can do for an acquaintance.A sign.A symbol. That you care for her/him.