AkImA No NiKkI

Today is my birthday.I don't feel special or anything but I DO feel very grateful for this is the day when I was born through mom's belly.I woke up this morning,feeling all energetic and happy,because I had in mind that I want to ask for forgiveness from her and thanking her for the pain she had when she was giving birth... TO ME . ....A dedication to my most beloved person, OMMA ... Omma,you fought the thin line of death while giving birth to me,and for that I'm sorry.. Omma,you held me in your arms the moment I was born eventhough you were still stinging from the infuriable pain,and for that I thank you... Omma,you nurtured me with your bodymilk when my size was only half of your arm and for that I thank you.. Omma,you took care of me from the moment I first learned to call you "ummi",from the first moment I learned to crawl,walk,and run..You took care of my food,clothes,health,almost every aspect of my life are full of your love.. And today,is my anniversary,fr...

"Please...God,don't take them away...Even though some people think that You take them because You love them more which is the real truth,but please,please....Let them be with me just for a little bit more time...Please...I'm already far from them,but it is more than enough that I could still listen to their voices,still in touch with them...Please,just a little bit more time...Please...Please,please,please..." I was so scared..I was so freaking terrified..Yesterday,right around in the evening,Azwa messaged me that someone had an accident.It was FAQIE.MY BABY.MY PRINCESS.MY BESTFRIEND.NUR FAQIHAH BT MOHD ZAIN. God,I was so freaking terrified.I can't move my legs normally.I think I was wobbling.I want to cry,but my tears was stuck.It was when I met Sarah that they came out.My baby,is she alright? Is she badly hurt? Is she in pain? Is she crying? Is she wondering whether I knew or not? Will she be alright...? I hate myself for not being able to be there for her.I fel...

Hahahaha~~~!!! man,it was funny!! Know what? my nee-san is getting older and older every day!(right,and if anyone ever gets younger by day,i'm totally nuts..) here's the story... My family is going back to Pasir Puteh to visit my grandma,which me and my sis generally objects because we don't really like to travel,not even going outta house.Frankly,even going to school is quite reluctant..hahaha~~..We went off in about 10-11 am from our house,and I was relieved that my two brothers get left behind because they would just be a nuisance in the car.Besides,they were the one who volunteered to happily skip the family visit with fishing/playing activities,i don't give a shit what do they wanna do just leave me alone for a day then i'd be grateful enough. The things is,on our way go,nee-san suddenly remembered that she doesn't have her purse with her.The purse that contains her ID card,money,bank cards,family pictures and stuffs.She started to get panic,and she was li...

Last night is the best dream ever.I slept at 5:15 am last night,after onlining and reading so much DBSK fanfics.It is very usual of me that every time I tumbled upon some great fanfics of former or present DBSK ,I will cry or laugh to my insanity actions,depends on what I feel when I'm reading.Last night I read a sad fanfic,telling a story of the present DBSK ,which has now turned into TVXQ and JYJ. The fanfic tells that our Appa(YunHo) feels guilty for not defending their group when our Omma(JaeJoong),Sui'e(JunSu) and Chunnie(YooChun) filed a lawsuit against SM Entertainment Corporation,whilst he was alone with Minnie(ChangMin) and desperately asked Minnie to blame him.Minnie,who was at the time,also feeling very distressed of his beloved hyungs dissapearance,yelled at Appa while crying.He expected for Appa to yell back at him,but he didn't,instead,Appa smiled and just nodded in his every sentence.In desperation,Minnie called for his hyungs . Meanwhile,JYJ was having ...