A new Start?

It happened a while back but it's not like I was in any suitable condition to write about it.Of course,my interpretations of it was all lost during the time of my depressed state.I mean,renewed news of my love life is hardly a contributing factor to my struggle of sanity-safekeeping.

Not actually renewed,though..And I doubt it's even official. *roll eyes*

It's like Tae Hee and Ja Eun when her reply to his confession had only been a "Yes,let's go..".Even I was baffled.

I don't understand his meaning that night and I don't intend on bringing it up any time sooner.Maybe,after exam ends.

I don't know if 'we' would ever happen,much else last.Because,for one,I had never in my wildest dream could have predicted this.

My thoughts were "no way in freaking hell it will happen.Maybe after hell freezes over." whenever a stray thought of possibility creeps into my head.

I mean,it's just,way,way too impossible.for me.

Believe me,I didn't see it coming.I was utterly at shock and had to take a calming,long breath to think.

Though you can't blame my insides for suddenly having butterflies roaming around and I almost had the urge to laugh insanely.

Just for good measure.

And the craziest of it all was that it happened just the way I wrote it.A few months ago,I wrote an essay,requested by a friend about a romance confession. 

Occasionally,I'd use familiar names and it was by coincidence that I used his name combined with mine.I thought nothing of it because it had been a usual gesture I do like any other.

The situation was,of course,different,but the dialogue was so similar I had to re-read it over and over again to make sure that I was not reading my essay instead.

Hey,by then,I thought that anything could happen if that,in turn,had taken a step into reality.

I've always been afraid to love,because I'm scared that I would not be loved back.It's easy to give than to receive,and easier to give and expect nothing from it.