AkImA No NiKkI

Dammit~~~!!!!!! DDDxxx I hate this stupid vacation! I don't want to go to a family vacation!! I just want to stay the damn home and sleep dammit!!!! Have anyone asked whether I'd like to go or not instead of just dragging me wherever they want??!!! I"M TIRED FOR GOD'S SAKE AND I PRETTY DAMN WELL WANNA GO HOME AND FUCKING STAY HOME AND SLEEP!!!!!!!!! Okasan,otosan , it's not like I don't like going to a vacation but please...I'm fucking seriously tired after weeks full of non-stop study and extra-classes,I'm not getting enough sleep lately and that's not really what I'm worried about ..I'm DAMN tired.. Agh...(sigh) I don't mind the not enough sleep part but I pretty mind about the whole dragging-me-around-like-I'm-some-kind-of-doll stuff.I have enough pushes from the teachers and from myself and I deliberately think that I don't need yours to push me more or I  WILL call the mental ambulans to pick me up.  G uys,guess whe...

Hirasshaimasen~! x3 I don't know if this struck u weird but in every( not all,I guess ) sad post,the opening wasn't so very sad.Today my post is going to be about "burden"."Futan" in Japanese means "burden" ( correct me if I'm wrong ) and shit,I'm writing like at 3.46 a.m right now.It's cold and I'm shivering in my pants.When I said "burden",I didn't mean it spesifically,I meant generally,as in all types of burden.Let's talk about the obvious first. 1)Students.                  The pure burden of being a student is as normal as every human who goes to school and work.Studies and works.Ever heard of suicides of over-stressed students? Of course we do.In fact,it happens a lot nowadays.I know that studies are important for success and pushes to keep moving,but what happens if we over-push? It becomes stress,right? From stress,fear will develop.When it does,some people go loo-loo just from thinking about it...

Oh My God .I can't believe this absurdity is happening,or more likely happened! This post contains mainly my craziness of Cassiopeia .To those who have no interest in this section,please do not read.I beg of you. For cassies ,please stay with me till the end ..*sobs*sobs** Today I have stumbled upon something that makes my heart cries and my tears flowing.An open video that says ,"Fanwar between HoMin fans and JYJ fans" .God,was I in shock..I mean,how could they...You see,these people who calls themselves Cassiopeian/Cassie are genuine impostors!! A true cassie would never hate any of Dong Bang family,a true cassie would never questions their faith to each other,a true cassie would never blame any members of Dong Bang family let alone start a fanwar fight between members themselves..This so-called fanwar is total absurd!! These people who has never knew the history of how Cassiopeia was created,dares to claim themselves TRUE CASSIE ???!!! Don't shit with...

Last night,I called Faqie.It's been half a year since we contacted each other.Even so,I had to say that when I heard her voice,it revives a deep feeling inside..Like digging out something that was buried.I wonder why at the time I thought,"oh,now I remember this voice",perhaps in these 2 years since we've separated,I have been so extremely busy that I even forget their voices.But,that's not the topic for today..Today our topic will be "The Great White Bitch of All Damn Bitches".Allow me to explain....*bows** Here we all know that Faqie's beloved jackass son of bitch fiancee' cheated on her right before his not-so-calmly death,and moreover,he cheated with her ex-friend from her primary school.Just how 'great' is that? And then,she told me that 2 months ago,the girl who took that jackassed son of bitch fiancee' from my Princess came to her house and I assumed that she was sorry for her betrayal.But then,guess what,I was WRONG. Fa...

"Kizuna" in japanese means "bonds".It doesn't matter whether it is bonds between family,or friendships,as long as it is a feeling of love tied to a person's heart to another..It is what we call,"bond"... You know,I talk a lot about myself,well this is my blog anyway,but that's not really the point.I'm starting to have this weird habit of taking it as a diary.Eventhough I don't occasionally write every day..We humans have many bonds,don't we? Bonds between family,friends,lovers,teachers,and even with some strangers we don't even recognise.I'm not gonna talk about crappy love bonds all day long,wasting my time,but I would like to elaborate this so called feelings of "love" and "bond". Bonds between yourself.Like you and your favourite stuff.Favourite hobby.Favourite actor/actress.Favourite anything that makes you happy everytime you do it or watch it or whatever terms suitable for your things. I don...

Today I got an injection.All the form 3 does.At first I was nervous,so I did a little singing.I sang Chang Min's solo song,Confession.I imagined Min came through the front door and stepped up to me.He consoled me.(Oh my God,that sounded like I was giving birth or something..T__T||||) hahahahahahaha~~!!! Uso! uso da! There's no way in hell that's gonna happen!! (what,I can't do a little imagining stuff??) Well,I love Min.That's because I can't accept JaeJoong with anyone else other than YunHo and JunSu other than YooChun.Which means they're both taken.Hahahaha~~ By the way,back to the injection.Well,they hurts just when the needle pursed into the skin.After that,you just feel stingy and beating,like a heartbeat.But they hurts.That's what matters. xPP And a happy news everyone!! Guess what,Muzakkir's going to a boarding school!!!! XDDDD banzai!! banzai!! banzai!! xDDD OMG,I can't believe this's really happening!!! xDD iI've always wishe...

1.Aku benci adik aku.Muzakkir.Benci.Amat membencikan.Benci.Benci.Benci.Aku nk sepak budak tu smpai planet Pluto dan biar dia mereput kt situ.I don't give a damn shit.Hell I don't.Aku tak tau napa kami ditakdirkan ntuk jadik adik-bradik tapi yg aku tau aku benci budak hingusan tu.Sebab? Dia menyakitkan hati.Biadab.Kurang ajaran.Rasa cam nk bunuh je.Aku benci budak tu. BENCI. 2. Aku benci duduk kt sini.Kt Tanah Merah.Kt hometown aku sndiri.Tmpat aku dibesarkan.Aku nak balik ke SMIP.Di sini penuh dengan orang yang membencikan walaupun tidak semua yang terlibat.orang yang menyakitkan hati.Kt SMIP pun ada yang menyakitkan hati tetapi di sana ada Faqihah,Azwa,Ming-ming,dan rakan2 aku. Aku sayang mereka .Terutamanya Faqihah dan Azwa .Dan sekarang mereka perlukan aku. Faqihah perlukan aku .Tapi aku takda kt sana.Sebab aku di sini.Tersekat.Tersumbat.Use whichever terms you prefer but the meaning is still the same.Tapi aku masih sayangkan mereka yang di sini,keluarga aku(exclude Muzakki...