AkImA No NiKkI

This is one of the countless times I feel like running my way back to SMIP.When any one of my 'family' is in possibility of threats from outsiders. I know full well of Azwa's exquisite beauty but I wasn't worried of the number of dumb males running after her because I know our 'daughter' could protect her as well as I could.She is every bit as protective of her 'mother' as I am and the amount of her impulsive strength is twice 's mine so I didn't think there would be any problem regarding her crazy fans.At least she'd be safe from that .(T^T) Mainly because I didn't think there would be different type of shit going after her.Nor there would be that type of shit at that school. Azwa having a stalker is not an uncommon story.But WHAT her stalker,this time,is.Her stalker this time,is none other than.......A girl. I know,big shock.(0_______o) When she told me the story two nights ago,I felt my eyes widen in their sockets.Well,that...

Mom said our country's been hit by haze and it's only a matter of time before it hits home 100%.She told me to not get outta house except for school and spesifically banned me from my lately routine cycling habit I picked up from Onee-san weeks ago. Also,she ordered me to drink more mineral water to prevent small infections like coughs,sore throat and fever.And bathe more. All of the orders above are given sternly and strictly because she knew those were none of my habits.Naturally,I drink when I'm thirsty and bathe when I feel like it. Purely instinctional. You can probably guess that if I don't feel like bathing or drinking,I won't until I do.The bathing part is  to clean haze particles that gets stuck on your skin or body during outside.Though I wonder if we can scrub it off with mere soap? The good news is,it's also only a matter of time before school's closed due to it.Mom said it'll only last for a week or so,tho I don't really mind if it ...

There were lots of things in my head.But now it's all gone. Is that a good thing or a bad thing? Depends on the things itself. Sometimes I think of reactions.Sometimes I think of plans. Sometimes I don't think anything at all.Nothing at all. But,there are one event that piqued my interest a bit lately.The founding of someone slightly similar to my observing habits. He was nobody new.In fact,we were childhood friends,and just in these few days,he shows a different side than the ones I've seen when we were little. And it's interesting. That's good,isn't it? Finally,a turn of events for my boredom.Call me selfish,but it is what it is.Besides,I'm not doing anything evil.Just analysing. And it interests me that the object of his observation,had been me . I suppose it's practically typical,for a girl to find this type of thing interesting and what more,a 17-years-old girl.Then again,I wouldn't be so stupid to think that highly of myself,that jus...

But once in a while...It's okay to cry..Right? Of course,the reason matters.

Faqihah and Azwa are family. I've always believed that.Though it started with nothing more than a mere game,it got stuck till now.Not that we minded,of course. Man,I wish they were here.My head feels so stuck up. Well,at least I'm not bored anymore. I should've known that feelings were just mundane little stuffs.I should've known better than to look it's way.Oh well,things will fall when it's supposed to fall. Like snow.Or rain. It falls exactly like it's supposed to fall and when it does,it will.Right now,all unimportant things should drain from my brain.The only thing matters right now is my study,my religion,and my family.That is all that matters. When all is done,I will forget everything and I mean,EVERYTHING that has happened for the last 4 years.From the moment I stepped out of SMIP's gate and into SMKTM(1)'s.Everything.Everything. Nothing else matters.That's the way it's supposed to be. As I cut my hair,I will cut all of me t...

I think..I'll cut my hair. Yappari,long hairs don't suit me at all.It's just not my personality,and it's really a bother.Maybe,I thought that appearances doesn't affect the insides.Well,I could be wrong. I'll cut it. And from now on,I will only keep it short.

yohhooo~~ minna genki desu kaa~~ ORE WA TAIKUTSU DAAAA~~~~   DDDXXX seriously,being 17,people would think it's the epitome of youth.For me,it's more like the epitome of boredom.I'm just so bored. Everything is so boring.Even doing homework is boring.The only thing that keeps me interested for only a moment is when I'm watching animes.I cried watching Gosick,laughed at certain times watching The World God Only Knows(if only I'd known it was a harem,I wouldn't have bothered.But I guess it's kind of a good omen since it's not half bad.) and had quite an adrenaline rush while watching Black Cat. Reading gives that too,but only for such limited time.Once you've finished reading it,it became boring again.*sigh* School has become impossibly more boring if it could get any further than it already has.People's reactions have become slightly more than bearable boredom,I've begun to care less and less. If I were to say,this condition felt familia...