AkImA No NiKkI

Hey, fellas. So, I think it's time I vouch that breather coupon on some quality space 'me' time. Reason? Well, other than for the sake of it, I guess I'd say it's sorta necessary now. Necessary like I-will-shoot-my-own-arm-if-I-don't kind of necessary. Call me overdramatic but it gets my point across. I coulda done it soon as Eid's festivities dwindled down but I wanna get my fasting substitution outta way first. I got 5 days yet to go but my PMS decided to call things short.  Welcome to the world of X-chromosome. The vacation coupon would have to wait a bit, I think. There happens to be some technicalities issue. So the park will have to do for now. It's not like I need much, just a couple of hours few days a week. Something like therapy, I guess.  Free therapy. Fuck, Banner would be so proud of me. Coming up with my own therapy and shit. LOL One thing we do share in common, Dr.Banner and I, is that our temper issues. I taught myself to in...

Hi guys. I'm already well from the fever tho I still have a bit of a runny nose to handle. But that's okay. My head is clear and my body feels fine so it's a win. ^^ Yesterday, my cousin and Fabio visited me along with Kyo and another friend. Grandma and I were the only ones at home at the moment so we just sat in the third living room and chat. It was nice, though I felt slightly tired afterwards when I saw them off to the gate. Fabio's friendship with me had settle slightly better than before, when I could barely tolerate his.....how to put in words, naivete, for lack of proper terms. Now I feel easier and more comfortable to exchange jokes and opinions with the guy, and that's good. Kei though...well, I suppose he's still has some issues of his own to waddle through so I'll leave him to get to it. After all, he hadn't confide in me in any sort and I wouldn't know how approach him about it anyway.  They do say people who seems the happiest...

Hello. So, news. I'm down with fever the night of the first Eid and yes, what perfect timing it is to fall victim to bacteria frolicking around in my bloodstream. It started like it always does.  A sore throat like I just swallowed lots of sandpaper. I went out to Grandma's house just as well yesterday, wearing a plain black robe and shawl. I felt well enough but by night, everything crashed down like an airplane shot and spiraling down to its doom. My head felt like a giant carnivorous gnome was using it as a chew-toy and every part of my body ached and ached to no end. I felt like an 80 year old instead of 19 year old. Of course, to make matters worse, the fucktard decided it was the best time to take Onee-san's car for a spin or something while I slept like the dead in my room from noon till dark. By the time I woke up, Onee-san was glaring at me like I just pawned off her firstborn to some dark witches. Apparently she blames my unconsciousness to be the reason h...

It's the end of Ramadhan, and opening to Syawal. And Eidul Fitr is 2 days to come. Thankfully, this year's celebration is less fussy than the years before. We have Grandma with us at our home so we don't have to travel back to the village and Dad's side of the family should be gathering on the second day of Eid so we have the first day to ourselves. Our own private Eid celebration with our family. ^^ Mom had given up on dragging me through stores to find some dresses, thank God for that, and conceded my point of only rummaging through countless clothes in the cupboard. Of course, she had to put restrictions. Else we all know I'm gonna end up wearing jeans and shirt on Eid and won't that be tragic for them. (o^o) Onee-san and baby bro are home for a week for Eid. And my friends, Fabio, Kei, Kyo, and some of the others would be back in town too. I hope we'd have time to hang out some time. I can't wait to see them. xD We hadn't keep in touc...

Hello. today's kind of a bad day. And it's fine, I'm just reeling in the urge to break something and shout colorful profanities at the top of my lungs. My chest feels like it's gonna blow up from the pressure, but I'm fine. I'm fine. I know cursing is bad and really frowned upon especially right now but considering some of the urges running through my head at the moment, it's really the lesser evil. Plus, I have not said them out loud. Just shouting them in my head and scrawling them wide and big and repetitively on blank pieces of paper which I later threw in the trash because evidences. I'm choosing the lesser evil here, really. So, warning, there's going to be a lot of F-bombs down here from this point. Okay, first of all, I need to get the fuck out of this house and BREATHE. Not for long, just a couple of hours, tops. If we weren't fasting and the evening has less potential to rain, I could take the bike and go to the park, just han...

Hello. Baby bro just left for another week of school about an hour ago. He looks super tired and sleepy because he slept after 3, shaken up for sahur, and went back to sleep until noon. He handled bad sleeping patterns well enough before, dunno why suddenly today's different. Maybe it's all catching up to him? He is only 13, after all. I'd woken up around 11, as usual.  Rolling around languidly in bed is a luxury I take joy in when I know most of my peers have to wake up at the ass crack of dawn and get ready for their jobs.  One of the ups of being jobless. LOL A few weeks ago, Mom and I had a talk of my childhood memories. Granted, I probably shouldn't have let loose on the bad ones I could still pull up from the memory bank but it got me thinking on the hierarchy of siblinghood. Parents aside, the eldest had it worst. Suddenly, all the thoughts about Onee-san came to light, and I empathize with her. No wonder her head's pretty messed up. We of the eld...

Hey fellas. So, I had a pretty good evening yesterday. :) Dee-Dee had one day off from work so she invited me out with some friends. Friends that I am well aware and comfortable with, of course. I had no specific plans (hadn't any of those for months, really.) so yeah, why not.  Besides, I do enjoy their companionship. The boys (Kyo and a friend) picked me up around 4. Of course, my parents are well aware of my plans and Mom had gone out to greet them. Needless to say, she was excited to see Kyo considering she has her heart set on matching up the both of us. Which I continue to protest loudly and clearly. I am not settling down that easy, Mom. Nor that early. I want to see the world. I had worn an outfit not quite like my usual, that would certainly promise a good ribbing and endless teasing from Amelia and Irene but I have no concern of my clothes. I wear what I feel like wearing, no one can tell me otherwise. Even if Mom disapproves, but then again, Mom disappro...